TWO REALIZIATIONS

"What does it mean to fear the Lord? Does it actually mean to be scared? No! It means to have awe, honor, respect, and reverence for who the Lord is. Simply it is this: 'I am not God!'"
 -Jerry Harris (50 days)
"Do you have a healthy fear of God almighty? Though He doesn't want you to be afraid to come to Him, He does deserve your respect and awe..."
-Susie Shellenberger (Devos)
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God is definitely telling me something! I need to fear Him. I need to realize and put into action what I know. He is God and I am not! Sounds simple but this is asking me to change habits that I have had for forever! So it won't happen over night but God will help me! (=

SOAP time:
S. "...No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate one and serve the other or he will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money..." Luke 16:13
O. Jesus wants us to serve Him alone! To despise ourselves and serve God. Hate our personal fain, despise materials, we should want nothing that will hinder us from serving Him.
 A. I have habits and an ugly past of putting my wants and others' above God's. Money too. I was not only serving money but myself. No, no! I also tend to do things or don't do things because I don't wan to.
P. LORD, what I want is nothing compared to what You deserve. Help me, Jesus to know that you are Lord and I am not. Give me wisdom to hate what I want, hate money and love You, serve You! Thank you for everything. In YOUR name,
Amen.
 
See? God has helped me realize two things today: That HE is God and I am not. And that I need to stop serving myself, period. In the verses before the one I chose to write down, He speaks about being trusted with little means you can be trusted with a lot. I feel like He is keeping me from getting a job now because I have not proven to be trustworthy with a lot because I have squandered money on things to pleasure myself and even others! I have given in tithing on all my income but He says that I cannot serve two masters so even when I was giving to God, I was not really serving Him. 
Goodness! I love when He helps me realize things. I often think, I wish He would have revealed it to me sooner, but I know that He has his timing and even if I don't understand it, I need to know He teaches me certain lessons at the time I need to learn them!
I have read this verse before, but never did it occur to me that the other "master" I was serving was MYSELF! By golly gee-wiz. So self explainatory yet so missed for so long. 

HE IS GOD, I AM NOT. SERVE HIM, NOT MYSELF.

DUH! Exclude myself from the equation ALL TOGETHER. In a matter of speaking, I cannot bow down to myself. A servant is seen and not heard. A servant is practically nothing! But a servant who serves themselves, is prideful. AH! I love my Jesus, He is so revealing. 

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