If I had all the time in the world, and people who would sit here and take the time to read everything that makes me who I am today I would definitely tell you my whole story because I believe within the very depths of my big heart that my struggles, obstacles, and hardships can be something that everyone can learn from.
Anyway, if you're on the outside looking in on my life or even a physical person just watching me, you'd be the farthest thing from jealous as far as how I spend most of my days, and here is why:
Monday, Wednesday, Friday I have classes so when I go to class I am social, blah blah. But when I am not in class, I am sitting in my dorm hanging out with myself or if I have errands to do, I am doing that, but for the most part I spend a lot of time alone.
Guess what?
I AM PERFECTLY OKAY WITH THAT.
Now hold on...why? Might you ask...the answer is simple: Because I have Jesus.
He is always with me, so I never feel alone. Even sitting in the lobby and being near human beings makes me feel better.
However, based on my past and what I am going through now, most people would describe me as "lonely" and I wouldn't describe myself as that because I don't feel lonely, I am just alone in God's presence. Constantly, and I have to say: I LOVE IT.
So if it wasn't for Jesus, I would probably have committed suicide a while ago because for the longest time I didn't think I had a reason to live & He always gave me a purpose and reason to not kill myself.
And I would feel like a loner, but the truth is, aside from wanting to interact with people just for the heck of it, I really don't mind spending all this time alone. After all, Jesus is the best company ever :)
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