I hate when motivation hits me at the wrong time. When I am determined to do something is when the opportunity has yet to present itself. As if when it happens I'll be ready; but at the same time, I feel like I'll get hit with laziness just as the opportunity arises.
For example: I don't quite know how much money I have made this summer, but it's been a lot. However, I only have about $5 in my bank account because I am awful with money. So, now that college is starting in like 2 weeks, I have no money! I am so motivated to get the best grades ever and at this point, I don't even know if I'll see college this fall.
I am hoping with everything in me that everything goes as planned, because I do not have a full proof back up plan.
On another note, I have been extremely challenged. This is when I realize that with everything, God is trying to teach me something:
My Dad and I got in a big fight the other day. In my fit of rage, I left the house to stay with my friend. In the time I stayed with her, I went with her to buy college stuff. Stuff that she bought with her own money. Me, just following her around the store gave me a new motivation to spend money on only necessities. BUT! I don't have any money. Do you see what I mean?
I get this motivation to not spend money because I don't have it.
I enjoy this feeling, but I am afraid that when I actually get money that I'll just blow it again.
I am thankful that God taught me this lesson. I just hope this time I can actually run with it.
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