Control

I know I have been posting like crazy about my thoughts. Everything is always such a blurr within my head and I am always finding myself looking back and wondering why I was such an idiot for feeling that way. Then I think I need to numb myself. 

How silly, why would I want to numb myself? I remember missing out on so many fantastic feelings because I was numb. The conclusion I was searching for isn't in the lack of feelings, it is in controlling them! I need to just control my feelings and thoughts. 

I hope no one took any advice from my previous posts. Let this be the one you learn from. Don't let your feelings destroy you, define you or control you, take them by the neck and control THEM.

Dillon, my wonderful boyfriend, taught me just to do that and it's incredible how easy it is when you let loose. We tend to think that letting things go will take effort when in fact it's just the opposite; it's when we fail to let it go that we think we can't control it.

Don't let your feelings win.