The college life...yee haw, right? Wrong. I am so bored it.is.unreal. I have been in the Residence Hall of my college for 2 weeks now and I still spend an obnoxious amount of time alone. Granted, the days here are about 9 hours long so there isn't a whole lot of time to waste but still on days I have class I go there and then what? It's not like I have homework! On the days I do not have class I sleep in, get ready (for pretty much nothing) and stay in my dorm. I will walk out of my dorm and down the hall to sit by the fire because my dorm is freezing or I'll walk out for no apparent reason (the RA's watching the cameras probably think I have a mental issue).
So what do I do? I'm not the assertive; walk-up-to-anyone type. Not that I care what people think of me because honestly I don't feel "lonely" but seriously, this not talking to anyone face to face thing unless I'm in class cannot be healthy. I've introduced myself to a few girls but I don't hang out with anyone still and the one girl I kind of know is always busy. Not that I can blame her, I mean, I doubt there is anyone else in this residence hall who is only a part time student.
The thing is: I'm not necessarily "complaining", like I said, I don't care what people think but just put yourself in my shoes for a second. I just feel like I have nothing going for me, coming into a dorm with a roommate who is never here, everyone else has already made friends, and I'm just this girl who randomly starts walking around the place.
On the outside looking in, I'm a "loner" but like I said I don't feel lonely. It is hard to explain.
I hope things change next semester, my friend Amber will be here but I also hope that because I'll be taking more classes that I'll make friends in there and it'll be fine. As of right now there is a screaming little lion waiting to burst out of me! Yes, there are cute boys to look at but I'm not looking for any kind of relationship so that's pretty pathetic.
If you have tips, please let me know! I just seriously don't know what to do with myself.
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