A Tug At My Heart

Lately a very lofty perspective has been aching in my heart. I have been thinking about happiness lately and what defines it. 
Happiness- can be all about temporary current feelings whether you're flashing back to your past, feeling happy (or not) with a decision you made or didn't make. Or you can be happy based on getting what you wanted for lunch, or the amount of sleep you got the night before. 
What I've been stressing about is if someone is happy with their life as they are on their death bed. I realize that not "everyone" lays in bed technically as they die, some just die but what about now?
Looking back at your life, are you..."happy" with what you did?


MONEY and SUCCESS will make you happy on this earth for a little while. But on your death bed, what will bring true comfort? Your bank account balance or a person you've spent your time loving?


When you spend your time pouring your heart and soul into other people, you'll die with a smile on your face. The amount of money you have will NOT because that is such an empty comfort for pain. 
Why do you think you need A LOT of money opposed to ONE person?


I'll leave you with that.

Drama!

There has to be a reason behind this mess! Why are girls so mean? Why can't high school kids go a day without drama? Well, being a high school senior, I've been thinking a lot on this subject and my evidence traces back to friends I just recently left because of it. Something I should have done a long time ago, but being on the outside looking in, I've learned the real reason things happen.
Insecurity- The girls I used to hang out with were bad! Wherever they went, they had a reason to hate on someone; whether it was their boyfriend, their nose, their clothes, anything! No matter who they were, they felt the need to point out every flaw they could find at first glance. Why did they- or teenage girls in general- do this? Seems pretty irrational and dumb to me, but it's because they are so insecure in themselves they have to re affront someone else just to feel good about themselves. Notice why they don't stop? It isn't literally fulfilling, it just makes them feel good for a second. That's quite obvious, it's been a proven study for a while.
How else can you tell a girl is insecure?
-She wears low cut shirt, with motives to attract attention from a male in order to feel important, pretty, or attractive.
-Constantly wears her heart on her sleeve.
-Lies about her emotions
-Pretends to be something she isn't in order to gain approval from a friend or male.
Jealousy- This is a big one! More than ever, I saw girls act on this emotion for different reasons. A lot of it has to do with unhappiness or discontentment with their own life. I am so blessed because I have a loving family with married parents, I have everything I could ask for, and people who don't have that will try and get me down any chance they got. And it isn't just me, it's anyone who's blessed to have anything another person wishes they had. 
I've noticed that girls who are jealous of me, find a reason to make me feel two inches tall. When my ex best friends used to get mad at me for no reason, the reality was they just wish they had what I had.
Example: I say I am going shopping and my friend says "I thought you didn't have money" hmm, why would that matter to her?
Unhappiness- Sadly, this is probably the number one reason girls act the way they do. They aren't happy! They do everything they can to make their lives worth living and when it doesn't work they become bitter and mean. Secretly they want their lives to be different, but with the unwillingness to act, they continue to take the anger meant for themselves out on people.